Saturday, September 01, 2007

I really really wish that I could be the kind of person that can take whatever life gives them and still be strong and not have to "un-burden" them self on someone else. Not that I've ever met someone like that. I'm just saying. It would be nice. Maybe. I think if I were like that, that I would probly have major trust/confiding-in problems. And that would be bad. I dunno. Maybe I'm just trying to wrestle things out in my head right now and maybe I want to tell someone - or better yet, I want someone who will already know what I want to say/get-off-my-chest without my having to say a word. Now, this probly doesn't really make sense - but hey, that's cuz this is my little space where I can write whatever I want. haha Ok, well, I'm so thankful for my friends who listen to me and understand me. Sometimes I wish that I could just stay with them all the time and stay away from family issues etc. But I suppose if I lived with only friends, well, first of all, I wouldn't meet new people and second, I would probly develop problems with my friends. Anyways, life seems to be a vicious cycle. Not that I've just noticed that. whatever

So, I have completed my second week of school. I think that I enjoyed them. I was/am pretty proud of myself cuz I have stayed on schedule like for the whole two weeks. But, we'll see how I am doing in like 5 more weeks... Anyways, I really like my written analysis of lit. class. Although, I think I am going to get pretty frustrated with it pretty soon. You see, we have to write a paper on two or three poems and Liz (who loves writing) said that she didn't really like this paper (she's taken the same class with the same Prof. and all...) so yea. Maybe I'm just being my usual pessimist self but I can't really help that. And usually when I try to think on the bright side of things, people laugh at me so anyways, back on subject... Last class I was in small group with these two guys that were in my last ENG class and they were being annoying. But it's not like that was a new thing either. They mostly sent the whole time we were supposed to be discussing the poems, trying to convince me that I had mad the Prof from our last class cry. Whatever. Ha, it was kinda funny though cuz they said that when the first met me last year, they thought I was scary and mean and they told each other that they didn't ever want to really meet me or talk to me. I'm so pleased. Well, sort of. I think they were sorta joking. Anyways, they're dumb. Besides, I'm not that scary. Or am I? Whatever. I'll live. I don't mind being scary either. >: B So yea, my job is going well and I'm still gonna try to get a job at Sbux too... so well see how that goes. I mean, I'll see how that goes. I'm not like a 'we'. ok, then, never mind. Welpers, I have to go help my mum make salsa. I don't even really like our homemade salsa. Oh well too bad for me. ok, I'm going.

" I close my eyes when I get too sad
I think thoughts that I know are bad
Close my eyes and I count to ten
Hope it's over when I open them"
-from Wonderful by Everclear


Thursday, August 09, 2007

Wowsers. I haven't posted since school ended. And now it's begining again. ha How time flies. Too bad it flies faster when you're having fun. This summer has been THE MOST AWESOME IN MY ENTIRE LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Not very hard when you've only had 17. I went to the sunshine state, the golden state, and now I'm in the crossroads. ha I can't wait to go to the fair tomorrow. but I'm most excited to see Ellie. I haven't seen her since before I went to CA. I mean, I've seen the Blackwoods more recently. : ) They're most of the reason my summer was so great. So thanks guys!!! I had SUCH a great time in FL. I'm pretty sure that this ECHO trip was the best out of all four. The leaders were awesome. Thanks guys for making that trip so fun. I already can't wait for FMP and WC. And next summer. haha I'm in a weird mood right now. Probly cuz I'm listening to *gasp* country music. haha Don't ask me why, it's not like I like the stuff. Right now I think my favorite song is Forever by Papa Roach. But that was kinda random. Welpers. I have school to do. : P I'll try to post more later. Soon. Love y'all. (that's about as "country" as I go hehe)

"rejoice, O young man, in your youth, and let your heart cheer you in the days of your youth. Walk in the ways if your heart and the sight of your eyes. But know that for all these things God will bring you into judgement" the Preacher

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

Well, I have like 5 minutes to post something so this'll be really short. I guess I don't really have anything to say. Which is sorta surprising. Well, I could say I'm PSYCHED for the Blackwoods to come back. But I think everyone already knows that. Anyways, my ENG 101 class at Marian will be over on Thursday. It's kinda sad and really happy at the same time. But I still have WVs. I have a speech and a freakin long paper due. Which obviously Quine didn't think is very important since he took it out of his revised edition of our syllabus . Oh well. I am really excited for SONrise. Although it seems like it shouldn't be happening yet. I remember SONrise two years ago and the things I was doing and everything so I dunno, it just seems like I should've forgotten them before it happens again. Ok, well, I must go.

"How tartly that gentleman looks! I can never see him but I am heart-burned an hour after" William Shakespeare (in one of his plays - I forget which though)

Thursday, April 12, 2007

Well, this post is gonna be short cos I have to run to class soon. I guess I don't really have anything to say besides this weather sucks and I hate it. I wish it would just be spring. Oh, I forgot, I also wanna say that I am soooooooooo excited that school is gonna be out in like 2.5 weeks. VERY exciting. I also am gonna say that I am soooo happy cos I AM GOING TO ECHO NEXT MONTH!!!!!! hehe It's one of those things that you seem to wait for forever and then it sneaks up on you. Kinda like a birthday. Or something. I am also very excited for SONrise and that Corban is going to e-mail me. hehe (I'm more excited for the former than the later). Anyways, I have been working on having a positive attitude because "we do not make things happen by what we think, so think positively, not negatively." (Max from Madeline L'Engle's "A House Like A Lotus") Anyways, I have to go now. But I won't run to class.

"those things that hurt, instruct" - Ben Franklin

"it's completely counter to general thinking today, where we're taught to avoid pain and seek pleasure. Pain needs to be moved through, not avoided" Ursula (from the above book)


Thursday, March 29, 2007

Wow, I haven't posted in FOREVER. Life has been so busy. Well, even if it hasn't I'll still blame it on that. Last weekend, at the HSC, I got this book by Madeline L'engle called The Arm of the Starfish. It was really good. Well, I love all the books I've read by her. But she quoted this Robert Frost poem (called Two Tramps in Mud Time) and here is the last verse:
But yield who will to their separation,
My object in living is to unite
My avocation and my vocation
As my two eyes make one in sight.
Only where love and need are one,
And the work is play for mortal stakes,
Is the deed ever really done
For Heaven and the future's sakes.
I really really like it. I guess it's just a good reminder to me to make all my job's and work stuff an opportunity to honor God and therefore make the boring/distasteful things enjoyable. Anyways, there are some not so deep comments and random thoughts that I've been having. So now I have to try to think of a quote to put up. hmmm.

"The greatest thing you'll ever learn...Is just to Love, and be Loved in return" Toulouse

Monday, February 19, 2007

Uuuuggghhhh. I am begining to feel the reprocutions (sp) of not eating in three days. haha Now you are worried. hehe, Truth is, I've had a fever/bug and yea, not fun stuff lemme tell ya. Thank goodness it was ONLY a fever (like as in no vomiting etc.) So yea. I am doing better. I'm looking on the bright side and being glad that I got sick on the weekend instead of during the week. So anyways, this is really short. Too bad. You'll jsut have to live with it. : ) Love y'all and God bless!!!

"Where there are no oxen, the manger is clean; but abundant crops come by the strength of the ox" Proverbs 14:4

Monday, January 29, 2007

Welpers, I am posting on my blog mostly for lack of something better to do. I have a conference thingy with my English teacher. I am not nervous or anything but I do wonder what we're gonna talk about. (besides English I mean) Well, yesterday's evening service was sooooo good. We (Christ Church) had Larry Wilson preach for us since Michael is out of town. Anyways, Mr. Wilson talked on Genesis 22 and yea. Last night I was super depressed but that was no surprise. I knew I was gonna be cuz I was happy on Saturday night. But, then I called the Blackwoods and I got to talk to Maria for 1 hour and 58 minutes and some seconds. I felt a lot better after that. We talked about memories of getting spankings and our different "traditions", then we talked about how we laugh. teeheehee. t'was tons of fun. Abby and Liz tried to evesdrop and they kept gettign annoyed cuz I laughed the whole time. Well, on Saturday I cleaned out my closet and then I had Eminem's "cleaning out my closet" song stuck in my head for a LONG time. It was annoying. See, I have a problem with getting songs stuck in my head all the time. Mostly I guess cuz when people say things that have something to do with a song I know my mind starts singing it. Anyways, I knwo I am not the only one. So, this weekend I hope to go up to lafayette for the organizational mtg of Emmanuel (?) . I am happy. Right now I think that I am just mostly content with my life. But I don't' know if that's good or bad. Anyways, love y'all.

Is turquoise more green or blue?